C O N T R O L

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 22:25:26 GMT

i' ve had 1,236 calories today.
i'm going to exercise for about 1 hr.
tomorrow thru wednesday, i'm fasting
I'm going to splish splash soon, which means i HAVE to look great.!

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 19:49:31 GMT

...735 calories today. and it's only 2:47
well, im taking baby steps to get back to restricting.
tommorrow will be 500
and then tuesday will be 300

wed- sunday, i will be fat fasting
and i still didnt get to go grocery shopping b/c my dad was home the whole time..
damn
i'll just go tommorrow.
lol. anyone wanna join me??

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 22:36:18 GMT

today's intake
Breakfast- vitamins 10cal
lunch- 1frenchfry      10cal
snack- seaweed and some vinegar- 100
cream cheese- 150
Dinner- chicken broth 15cal
               dried seaweed- 20cal
               carrot- 25cal
               hot cocoa- 20
              peanutchew- 40cal
                         TOTAL: 390 ~400cal
lol as you can see.. im obsessed with seaweed

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 18:36:41 GMT

My diet plan
jan 7-15 low carb/calorie diet ( under 20grms carb under 500cal)
Jan16-21 fat fast
jan 22-31 2468 diet/ low carb

remembering my development of an ED

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 22:50:11 GMT

There was a girl. named Katie
she always used to count calories.. but wasnt obsessive.
she was able to eat cookies with milk without any guilt
able to hangout with friends without making excuses

around last christmas, her family started to tease her about
she getting bigger and "growing up"
they commented on how "chubby" i got
...
she didnt care at first.
but she looked in the mirror and saw a pig staring at her.
she also noticed her friend loosing lots of weight and also obsessing over calories
so she decided to eat healthier and exercise more

at night she would exercise only for 30min.
just a little bit of jogging

in the morning she would do some stretching
and a little bit of kickboxing

she let herself eat until she felt "satisfied" but not full

her family started to tell her that she lost weight
it made her feel good.

THEN....
it became obsessive

at night she would be staying up planning wat to eat
right after a meal, she would exercise... right away .
exercisinf for 1hr aday wasnt enough
she increased it to 2hours a day
waking up at 5 just to exercise
walking to school
making up excuses on y she cant hangout
and that shes a vegitarian b/c she lovvesss animals
...

one of her friends did a research paper on anorexia

and read it in front of the whole class

....she realized the symptoms were similar to hers

so she went on google and did some research

cand came upon thinspos and proana sites
and now she is here.
still struggling..

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 20:44:30 GMT

Age:14
height:5'1
CW: 102 (well, at least the last time i checked)
HW:102
LW: 80
GW1: 90
GW2:85

ANYONE WITH SIMILAR STATS AS ME?
willing to be my "diet buddy"?

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 02:42:53 GMT

new years resolution:

BE 90lbs... or even 80
wear more daring clothes
be a better student
be a better christian
no chocolate
get a job
make more friends
stop cursing
be thin
stop binging
have confidence

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 04:26:14 GMT

low cal (holiday) recipes that i made up;)

peppermint mocha:
coffee, and add skim milk- about 20cal (depends how much milk you put in)
put it in refrigerator to cool (10min)-
add ice and blend(optional)
add about 1-2 small crushed candy canes in top.-15-30cal
TOTAL: max. 50cal.

apple/ raisin mix

cut an apple into wedges- 80cal
add a small box of raisins(if it's notpackages, its about 37small raisins)- 40cal

tbsp cinnamon-18cal

put them in a ziplock bag and mix or shake;)

total: 140cal(approximate)

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 02:16:03 GMT

12. 12.07
not too far from christmas or newyears.. yet i keep fucking up.
like one day i would have 100cals, next day i would end up binging to like1500-2000. ugh. fatass
well, here's tomorrows plan :D

breakfast:
1 piece of andies peppermint chocolate-25cal
peppermint tea- 0cal (lol, i seem to be obsessed w/ peppermint and it also decreases my cravings and apetite)

lunch:
popcorn- 100cal

snack:
box of raisins:40cal
wuloong tea:0cal

dinner:
chicken broth- 20cal
sleepy's tea:0cal

TOTAL: 185cal
so.. about 200cal.(i round up ALWAYS)

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 02:43:54 GMT

UGH. im gonna kill myself right now.
like. i told me self 2403482050857times in my head not to eat..
yet, im doing so well,in the morning and wen i get home from school, the food is callingme
and im thinking about taking just one bite, but end up eating the whole thing.
my blubber is freaking building on up me.
im a fat bitch fatfatfatfatfatfatfat.

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 04:11:44 GMT

im going to stop the ABC.
i have to put myself in TOTAL control, and then i'll start it again

11.29.07- 200calories
brekfast: coffee w. 1/5 cup skim milk - 20cal
lunch: 1 cup kix- 100cal
dinner- chicken broth w/ black pepper- 20cal
fiber supplements: 55 cal
total: 195cal

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 23:13:17 GMT

i'm sick of it.

i hate myself. i hate loosing control.

i hate me. i hate food.

i started the ABC with a friend from lj. i screwed upp.

im so angry at myself... today was my 300cal day. i always screw up when i get home.

breakfast:1/4 apple-30cal

lunch: coffe w/ skim milk- 20cal

dinner(binge)- 2cups cereal- 250?

1tbsp honey- 60

                          shrimp- 70

                           cashews- 170
total cal: 600 ish.

i NEED to loose weight by christmas, if not new years.

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 23:07:20 GMT

Age:14
CW : 102
Lw:80
HW:102 :(
GW1 (by christmas): 90-85
GW2: 85-80

AIM:KTkimm1
im here if anyone needs me ;)<3